scandal

sometimes, scandals do make you feel good inside

people around you tease you with 'someone'

and you hate to admit, you do like the attention you're getting

someone you never saw that way, has now become a significant figure in your life

as you start noticing traits about him/her that you never did before

but, more often than not, scandals can have a DOWNWARD EFFECT

a scandal could very well ruin your friendship with that person

such a comfortable friendship, stained by the presence of awkwardness

that person, invaded by discomfort, will then try to push you away

see, a scandal may also be an easy opportunity for syaitan

to incite us weak human beings to be distant from Allah

you may not have romantic feelings towards that person

but it should not be denied that yes, he/she does come across your mind once in a while

after all, we are but human

so, when you're busy thinking about that person

you tend to think of Allah less

what makes this worse is when the person you're associated with

actually believes, without any basis, that you have feelings for him/her

he/she will then try to reject you, in a subtle manner

and almost always, the 'silent treatment' method will be used

as all this is occurring, the people around you start questioning your principles; thinking the worst of you

right now, i really hate this scandal

because of this scandal, my friendship is on the brink of shattering

because of this scandal, someone i enjoy being friends with, has started to ignore me

because of this scandal, people have a bad perception towards me

because of this scandal, i feel awkward among the people around me

( but i don't care much about what others think of me;
only Allah's perception towards me matters)

O you who have believed, if there comes to you a disobedient one with information, investigate, lest you harm a people out of ignorance and become, over what you have done, regretful.

 ( 49:6)

O you who have believed, avoid much [negative] assumption. Indeed, some assumption is sin. And do not spy or backbite each other. Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his brother when dead? You would detest it. And fear Allah ; indeed, Allah is Accepting of repentance and Merciful.

 ( 49:12)

be patient erna!

Allah loves you

"Allah does not charge a soul except (with that within) its capacity"

bear with this for just 2 months more

after that, you'll start a new life

i hate this feeling